Listen, I promise, she said to herself. This was the last time I abandoned you, you know, this was the last time I forgot you. Now I am here again. And I will stay. I will not leave you again. I will not leave us.

On the other hand - who knows. I have done it about a million times before and it would be quite unusual if I managed to live the rest of my life without doing it again. And again. And again.

This time I will stay and we will be together for eternity.

You know me, I know. But at least I wish I could.